A white light shines in, and I repeat the same awakening
The red light announces the end, will tomorrow come...

Why were we given life? What were we born to do?
Offering prayers to god, but our wishes will never reach him

Stretching out my black wings, I get lost in the darkness,
Not even telling you the pain of this farewell

After 2 Year Of Wandering

After 2 Years Of Enduring The Harsh Journey I've Has Finally Returned.I Have Now Becomed Better Than Last Time.I've Changed.My Past Love Has Been Lost Forever,But Nothing Is Gain Without Any Lost.I Believed God Has His Own Reason.I Was Once Lost in The Darkness.I Had Stray Away From My True Self But Now I'm Back And Better.

Angels Wings Spread Far Apart.
Her Heart Bleeding Of Pure Blood.
What She Hoped Had Vanished.
What She Had Believe In Is A Lie.

I'm Now Single.Because I'm Waiting For A Girl.She Is Now Somewhere Unreachable By Me.No Matter How Long I Have To Wait I Will Wait.People Will Think I'm Foolish But This Girl Is The One I Love.Everyday And Night I Think Of Her,The Way She Hug Me The Way She Kissed Me Is so Unforgettable.She Is The Person Whom I Loved Very Much.

In Life There Is Challenges.
It's Not What Happened To Us That Matters,
It's What We Do With The Time Given To Us.
May Our Heart Fill With Hope And Courage In Times Of Hardship

Next Month 09 June 2009,I will Be Going To National Service(NS).I'm In PES B.I'll Be In Civil Defense(CD).The Training Going To Be Tough.But I Will Endure.

A Mysterious Guy

Yesterday I Went to Yishun Library.To Use The Computer To Apply For McDonald Job.When I Was Using The Computer,A Guy Wearing A Songkok(I Guess Because It's Friday:Friday Prayers).Had Long Curl Hair AtThe Sides. My GF Told Me He Look Suspicious,I Just Ignored Because I Thought He Is Just Looking Around.I Myself AMuslim So I Don't Care Much.

But Suddenly He Came Beside Me Leaning Forward And Say A Phrase That All
Muslim Usually Says:Asyhaduallah Illah Ha Illah Wa Asyhaduanar Muhammadur
Rasulluh(2x) And He Also Said The Meaning:I witness That Allah Is The Only
God And That Muhammad Is His Messenger.

(Sum Of This May Be In The wrong Spelling And Meaning.Any Mistake Is all Done by Me.I apologise if There is a misunderstanding)

What Concern Me Was the Actual Fact That Why He Had Choosen Me And Not Other Muslim.What He Saw In Me That He Need Said The Phrase To Say To Me.After He Said There He Vannish.Shortly After He's Gone,There Was a heavy Rain.I Wonder If It Is Related To What I Dreamed The Night Before The Incident.

I Hope Im Able to See Him Again And Ask Him.Who Is He....

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5th Month

Today is my 5th month with my GF...hehe...Today i'll be meeting her
at Simei MRT...Then maybe we will go to East Coast Park,spent some
quality time there...Then maybe we will go to Yishun to play at Time
zone.....

The 1st 3mths was like hell...We quarrel everyday...Due to each of our differences and attitude problem...But since the 4th mths we been talk
and fighting less often...For the last 2 weeks..we almost never fight..
That is like a miracle for both of us..

This 5th mth i'll make it better...

As time Past People changes...

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SBM Bazzar...

Today My Class(OI) n 1 Other Classs Set Up a Stall To Sell Food & Drinks...

Its for SBM 3rd Project...My group Sold Drinks(Oasis Fusion Drinks) &

Other Like Choc Kway Teaow(dun no hw to spell d:)...Hahaha...Sorie but

it incomplete 4 nw cause i hav to pick up my GF(she veri sweet n cute...hehe)....

bubye...

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Lost Ring Of Love

Yesterday,my beloved told me before i've gone to work,that she lost the ring

that i bought for her....It did not suprise me as she has never worn the ring that

i bought for her....Even i was expecting this inccident to happen..I still feel sad...

I believe everything happen as God wants it to happen...So i did not get angry..Cause if i get angry it's akin to being angry with God's decision....But i can't help but to ponder on why she has never worn it.....Does she even love me???

We usually do not talk...And when she talk it's all about studies...When i hold her hand she will give excuses like checking her bag...In the train...She hold the pole instead of me...When standing in the train she always stand so far....She never told me she love me or kiss me..It's always me who kiss and hugs her

The winds of time...

you knock me to the ground..

Im dying of thirst...

I wanna run away..

I dunno how to set me free to live...

My mind cries out in pain...

Oh God i believe everyting happens as you want it to be...God please show me

wether she love me cause i love her deeply

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Lately In Depths

Lately i've been feeling sad and down....I do not know why...I feel moody most of the time..

Its not because i'm working and studying at the same time..Its more of emotionally tired.....

Perhaps i'm tired of acting what i'm not..A cheerful kid..Who always look on the bright side...
I wish to be myself but i'm scared people will not be able to accept it...

Oh God help me....................................

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