Lost Ring Of Love

Yesterday,my beloved told me before i've gone to work,that she lost the ring

that i bought for her....It did not suprise me as she has never worn the ring that

i bought for her....Even i was expecting this inccident to happen..I still feel sad...

I believe everything happen as God wants it to happen...So i did not get angry..Cause if i get angry it's akin to being angry with God's decision....But i can't help but to ponder on why she has never worn it.....Does she even love me???

We usually do not talk...And when she talk it's all about studies...When i hold her hand she will give excuses like checking her bag...In the train...She hold the pole instead of me...When standing in the train she always stand so far....She never told me she love me or kiss me..It's always me who kiss and hugs her

The winds of time...

you knock me to the ground..

Im dying of thirst...

I wanna run away..

I dunno how to set me free to live...

My mind cries out in pain...

Oh God i believe everyting happens as you want it to be...God please show me

wether she love me cause i love her deeply

Alucard De Muere

Lately In Depths

Lately i've been feeling sad and down....I do not know why...I feel moody most of the time..

Its not because i'm working and studying at the same time..Its more of emotionally tired.....

Perhaps i'm tired of acting what i'm not..A cheerful kid..Who always look on the bright side...
I wish to be myself but i'm scared people will not be able to accept it...

Oh God help me....................................

Alucard De Muere

Pain Through The Lighted Path

Today i opened my e-mail and i saw an e-mail sent by my beloved...Today i opened my e-mail and i saw an e-mail sent by my beloved...

She ask me to change....Does she agree with the guy called Jothi Kumar..

Im so disappointed...

As i walk through the breeze...
I felt as if my heart start to bleed..
All i wish to have is a life filled with happiness..
But in the end im full of sadness....

It seems that she think im childish...

She wants me to be a matured guy..I'll show her my matured side...

But she will suffer...As i hardly talk or socialise...Im the lonely type of person...

I shall start to show her my matured side today when i see her later...
In actual fact is cruel.....

Alucard De Muere

1st Post

This is my 1st post so i'll intro my self..

My self...............

Im a young man in his 17teens and 18teens..
I hav a tall-slender built n a round face....

My interest...........

I like to watch manga(e.g. DNAngel,D-Gray Man and etc...)...

I like to write poetry of my own according to my feelings...
I like reading books on strategy and combat(e.g. Sun Tzu Art Of War,Book Of 5 Rings)..

I hear to all types of music from Hip Hop to J-Pop...

My Dream Image............

I dream of my self in a country covered w beauty...but tainted by monster....

To me im a knight...wearing a silver armour with golden trim.....

My sword is Ex-Calibur The Twin(i once drawn it).....

To me im a knight leading an army of 300.....we venture through out the land...

Saving man and women alike.....

What i wear is not fixed so i dun tink it necessary to include it as i wear

from punk rock to normal casual wear(jeans and t-shirts)...Sooo tat's all about me....

Till i think of other things....

Alucard De Muere